Of late I read more Instagram and Facebook post than in the past. What’s captured my attention the most are the post men create; writing about women they meet that state they haven’t had sex in months. Other men chime in and remark that those are whores and the woman is a liar. Men forgetContinue reading “Why men generalize this woman, I will never understand.”
The moment we had an opportunity to talk without the boys present, we bonded. We became best friends; taking a lot of gossip chatter in stride–everyone around us, jealous; reasons unknown to us, nor did we care. She was my sister from another mother. Life happened, we would spend time together, then years apart. AlwaysContinue reading “My Best Friend”
I would rather die So I die Die to Live Appeared that I love You more than I love myself; just a fraction. Tolerance Patience Faith—Then I saw Satan’s son. Take your rightful place in the Universe. Exhaling long/hard. Heart pounds though my chest. Breathe.
Listening to the rain fall over Brooklyn. Day fading to night. The coolness of the day fills the room from the open kitchen window. Monica’s voice on the CD player keeping the apartment from silence. The scent of Heulwen’s Embrace slowly creeps out of the room and down the hall as I fill the blackContinue reading “Remembering You”
I do not want to have sex for the sake of having sex. I want to have sex to fill my emotional, my mental, my physical need. The other sex will not scratch the itch that begins with the kiss. The kiss that causes my heart to thump once hard, stop, and begin again, new.
Headed to find a pair of shoes for a wedding on Thursday. Exit the highway , enters into my view the Statue of Liberty, the East River, Manhattan on my right. It occurs me, I live in New York.
Looking into Lower Manhattan as the sun set this evening.
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I did not know it was going to hurt the first time nor the second or third time for that matter. I did not know I was supposed to feel good when it was over either. No one prepared me for either, the beginning, what should occur in…
I love you. I want to keep loving you. I leave you now, so I keep loving you. When our eyes meet again–I leave you now, so I love you then.
The next time you tell me that, I really need to be feeling your breath against my skin.
Ever see Satan’s soul? Go to the mirror.
I have thought more of you this day than in all the days we have known each other. I wish we had more time. The irony of it all. Had you not let me go–two years seven months later; you are leaving me. I never told you. My favorite style. Watching you take your motorcycleContinue reading “For Frazier”
I glided along the pier shooting the sunset. The sound of the tide underneath me. The wind blowing my hair against my face causing my locks to blow across my lens. I stopped to drop my camera bags and get another shot. “Perfect,” I whisper as I raise my head away from my viewer toContinue reading “Coney Island”
“We going to get to know each other in here tonight.” Gladys Knight said that a few times during her performance. She has an amazing energy amazing story. I drift off my… I say that to say, I cannot afford a shrink so I shall take my pen to hand and then my finger tip’sContinue reading ““You want to know me?” “Really?””
My super power. People would feel and see the human experience they are creating, providing, or denying another human being before they move in forward motion.
I got a in box from my sister last week. The reaction of my action. She called me a “drama queen”. From that moment to this one I search for the drama queen in me. I do react to hurt rather loud. Probably because I take so long to react. It has taken me 48Continue reading “My in box”
A random street in Brooklyn
We were pulling up to the ATM when he responded, “Well since we are no longer competing with each other.” My mouth agape as I processed the words. “Now that we aren’t competing…” I said, “Competing, Michael, competing!” “What were we competing against?” “Which one of us suck’s dick better?” “This is what’s been wrong with ourContinue reading “Now that we aren’t competing…”
There we were. Sitting in that damn hospital all day, everyday. Waiting. Waiting for Mommy to wake up. Waiting. Waiting. My niece felt it would be a good time to ask me questions about her mom. I sat there asking myself why this child needed someone else to confirm her relationship or the lack thereContinue reading “Loyalty”
Know what you need to know about me. I have lied. I have been lied on–learned early that lies hurt. I have stolen; not because I had to but because I wanted to know I would not be caught. Did it twice to make sure. Took it back–put it back. I have cheated. I haveContinue reading “I have lied, cheated, stole, and killed”
“I can tell that I missed a good relationship in you.” He said. “Why do you say that?” I responded. “Because I can feel a dose of tenderness in your voice.” He said, “Come here, let me give you a dose of how I feel about you.” His laughter followed. “Shut up, you are messingContinue reading “A moment with Frazier”
He said, “You can slow dance.” “Actually, no I cannot.” “Sure you can.” He said. “It is a two step.”
Is it just me? When I drink wine, the glass needs to remain clean. When I drink wine the glass needs to remain half empty.
“Do you touch yourself?” He asked. “No.” “It only leaves me wanting more.” She responded. “Come here, and play with yourself while I watch.” He said. “Why?” She asked. “So I know how.” He responded. ~~~ He leaves me feeling his soul
When you see me working. Do not say, “Do you want some help?” Either step in and help without permission or remain silent and out of the way. Asking me, “Do you want some help?” mean’s you do not want to help me do anything. You are simply being polite. Something that does notContinue reading ““Do you want me to…””
It is 3:11 a.m. The noise over my head . If they are not having sex the noise must stop. I am going to slide a note in there door. I pause now to take ink to paper.
“If I die before you do, are you coming to my funeral?” “Why would I do that?” A look of hurt and confusion came over his face. “To pay your respect.” He said. “To pay my respect?” “Respect.” “Hmmm.” “Your actions towards me have not been with respect.” “No, I would not come toContinue reading “Respect”
relationships. From the perspective of being a mother. My children are adults. I do not have the energy to be mommy to when I was not the best mommy to my children. Besides, you see the word mantic in romantic, yes.
mean I have nothing to say. It means I do not feel you are ready to feel my thoughts. I am selfish, yes.
We got on the elevator at the Trump Plaza Hotel headed to our room. A singing group got on the elevator with us. One of them looked me up and down, then down and up. He said, “You have beautiful legs.” Before I could say thank you, my companion said, “Thank you.” He looked atContinue reading “Trump Plaza Hotel”
NYC Wine Festival 2014
You not believing the truth does not change it being true.
Someone said to me today, “I wish someone would give to me the way I give to others.” I responded, “It does not work that way.” “As long as you are giving because you expect something in return, you are not giving from your heart but from selfishness.” I was having an MRI done. WhenContinue reading “Selfishness versus…”
Walking back from the post office with a song in my heart and a twinkle in my eye a man stopped me and said, “If we were in my homeland I would take you.” I stood frozen for a moment processing what he said to me. I responded, “That line may be effective for youContinue reading “Arrogance of Man”
A homeless man laid on the ground against a gray concrete building in the City. It was 37 degrees this morning. He was sleeping, suddenly his body jerked hard wakening him violently. He sat up and started yelling, “Get away from me.” “Get away from me.” As the passersby moved to the far end ofContinue reading “Good Friday in Manhattan”
Two hours ago I settled down at my desk to work. Positive attitude, positive energy flowing. The phone rang. I smiled so the caller would feel my joy. Within four minutes I got annoyed. After five minutes I was pissed. 30 seconds later I was angry. By the time seven minutes rolled in I wasContinue reading “Lesson of self”
Had a late meeting. My client hailed a taxi for me. In Brooklyn there are few yellow or green taxies more car services. I got in and gave him the address. We pulled off. After four blocks he asked me what I usually pay. I said, “$15 plus a tip.” He responded, “I cannot takeContinue reading “Brooklyn NY car service”
They hang out on a regular basis. The time together is appreciated and valued; an appreciation for what they have in common and what they do not have in common. It has been expressed more than once that there is a desire for a more serious relationship. They have little in common. Something that isContinue reading “Opposites Attract”
Last week I logged in to Facebook to discover that an old friend’s brother passed to the other side. I thought about my three siblings. A part of me would pass with them. A lot of me would hurt, a part of me would rejoice, a lot of me would me angry, a part of meContinue reading “A Lesson”
Jayne slid into driver seat of her 2015 white Lincoln MKZ, plugged her iPhone 6s Plus into the USB, selected R.H.R.’s CD from her play list, added her destination to her GPS, put on her seat belt, took the ponytail holder out of her hair; checked the time on her two carat diamond studded Bolova, started the vehicle, openedContinue reading “Homeless living, Oahu Hawaii”
Love…You ever love someone that doesn’t, didn’t love you? If you are comletely blessed you have no idea of the emotion of what I write. Often people fall in love with the moment. With where they are, with what they believe they need, what they are mssing; love. Step back before you step forward; do youContinue reading “Unconditional”
Absent at the first step taken, favorite bedtime story, removal of training wheels, first emergency room visit, first lost tooth, first day of school, the plays, chorus, open house, parent teacher conference, driver license, homecoming court, prom dress, graduation, first love–heartbreak, college chosen, first job, first promotion…first anything, second everything. Absent at birthday, holiday, happy day, loss of granny, gran papa, favoriteContinue reading “Absence”
From the book Safari for The Soul by Jan Boal This book is a must read, it has received a 5-Star Rating from San Francisco Book Review.
. Each officer across the nation takes an Oath: On my honor, I will never betray my badge, my integrity, my character, or the public trust. I will always have the courage to hold myself and others accountable for our actions. I will always uphold the constitution my community and the agency I serve. TheContinue reading “Respecting The Blue Shield”
An Open Letter to The Media, The Police Department, and The American People The Nation cannot, will not heal until we address all the issues that the Media, The Department of Justice, The Educational System, and Americans keep sweeping under the rug. Each time a minority is killed by a Peace Officer in America the Department ofContinue reading “Elephant In The Room”
I walked into the meeting, paused for a moment scanning the room to locate an empty seat. A voice said, “Hey you.” I felt his tone; glanced down in front of me; saw the look in his eyes. I felt one of the four brick walls surrounding my heart crash to the ground…the smoke madeContinue reading “Early morning meeting”
Have you every fallen, and the impact not hurt? Nope; me either. Some falls hurt less than others. Sometimes we can break the fall, Sometimes we brace ourselves for the fall. Sometimes we can roll on the impact…it still hurts. Some falls will have you laying in the rocks unable to move for a momentContinue reading “The fall”
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I can be an asshole. I need to remember this fact when I am interacting with others. As I have looked over a matter I went from I can be an asshole to being an asshole. I will play nice with the other children on the play ground; keeping in mind that I can beContinue reading “I can be”
Today’s word is GRATITUDE. Something so many of us lack. When and where did any of us get so full of our EGO that we no longer show gratitude for the time another spends giving to you! Instead of bitching about what that person did not did not do in their giving of their time,Continue reading “Show some gratitude, damn.”
I have learned that whenever I am being beat over the head with something; that something, is a lie. One of the biggest lies ever told on Earth anywhere is who the weaker sex is. I had my baby girl on Wednesday. Thursday morning I was ready to go home. I had things to do,Continue reading “The weaker sex”
Unconditional with my love–love is sacrifice not compromise! Kind Giving Loyal Understanding Sexual Being Exceptional Intellect–knowledge is everything. Have A Smart Ass Mouth when I am being lied too! Makes me want to take the liar’s head off…as long as I am yelling you still have a chance. Once I go quiet–we are done.Continue reading “I am…”
I did not know it was going to hurt the first time nor the second or third time for that matter. I did not know I was supposed to feel good when it was over either. No one prepared me for either, the beginning, what should occur in the middle and definitely not the end.Continue reading “Cum Catcher”
After my dentist looked at my x-rays he began to tell me what his plan of action is to fix the problem. I said, “I appreciate all that you are going to do; however, do not put anything in my mouth that is going to affect my oral skills.”