The moment we had an opportunity to talk without the boys present, we bonded. We became best friends; taking a lot of gossip chatter in stride–everyone around us, jealous; reasons unknown to us, nor did we care. She was my sister from another mother. Life happened, we would spend time together, then years apart. AlwaysContinue reading “My Best Friend”
Headed to find a pair of shoes for a wedding on Thursday. Exit the highway , enters into my view the Statue of Liberty, the East River, Manhattan on my right. It occurs me, I live in New York.
I love you. I want to keep loving you. I leave you now, so I keep loving you. When our eyes meet again–I leave you now, so I love you then.
The next time you tell me that, I really need to be feeling your breath against my skin.
I have thought more of you this day than in all the days we have known each other. I wish we had more time. The irony of it all. Had you not let me go–two years seven months later; you are leaving me. I never told you. My favorite style. Watching you take your motorcycleContinue reading “For Frazier”
“We going to get to know each other in here tonight.” Gladys Knight said that a few times during her performance. She has an amazing energy amazing story. I drift off my… I say that to say, I cannot afford a shrink so I shall take my pen to hand and then my finger tip’sContinue reading ““You want to know me?” “Really?””
My super power. People would feel and see the human experience they are creating, providing, or denying another human being before they move in forward motion.
I got a in box from my sister last week. The reaction of my action. She called me a “drama queen”. From that moment to this one I search for the drama queen in me. I do react to hurt rather loud. Probably because I take so long to react. It has taken me 48Continue reading “My in box”
A random street in Brooklyn
We were pulling up to the ATM when he responded, “Well since we are no longer competing with each other.” My mouth agape as I processed the words. “Now that we aren’t competing…” I said, “Competing, Michael, competing!” “What were we competing against?” “Which one of us suck’s dick better?” “This is what’s been wrong with ourContinue reading “Now that we aren’t competing…”
There we were. Sitting in that damn hospital all day, everyday. Waiting. Waiting for Mommy to wake up. Waiting. Waiting. My niece felt it would be a good time to ask me questions about her mom. I sat there asking myself why this child needed someone else to confirm her relationship or the lack thereContinue reading “Loyalty”
Know what you need to know about me. I have lied. I have been lied on–learned early that lies hurt. I have stolen; not because I had to but because I wanted to know I would not be caught. Did it twice to make sure. Took it back–put it back. I have cheated. I haveContinue reading “I have lied, cheated, stole, and killed”
“I can tell that I missed a good relationship in you.” He said. “Why do you say that?” I responded. “Because I can feel a dose of tenderness in your voice.” He said, “Come here, let me give you a dose of how I feel about you.” His laughter followed. “Shut up, you are messingContinue reading “A moment with Frazier”
He said, “You can slow dance.” “Actually, no I cannot.” “Sure you can.” He said. “It is a two step.”
When you see me working. Do not say, “Do you want some help?” Either step in and help without permission or remain silent and out of the way. Asking me, “Do you want some help?” mean’s you do not want to help me do anything. You are simply being polite. Something that does notContinue reading ““Do you want me to…””
“If I die before you do, are you coming to my funeral?” “Why would I do that?” A look of hurt and confusion came over his face. “To pay your respect.” He said. “To pay my respect?” “Respect.” “Hmmm.” “Your actions towards me have not been with respect.” “No, I would not come toContinue reading “Respect”
relationships. From the perspective of being a mother. My children are adults. I do not have the energy to be mommy to when I was not the best mommy to my children. Besides, you see the word mantic in romantic, yes.
mean I have nothing to say. It means I do not feel you are ready to feel my thoughts. I am selfish, yes.
We got on the elevator at the Trump Plaza Hotel headed to our room. A singing group got on the elevator with us. One of them looked me up and down, then down and up. He said, “You have beautiful legs.” Before I could say thank you, my companion said, “Thank you.” He looked atContinue reading “Trump Plaza Hotel”
Someone said to me today, “I wish someone would give to me the way I give to others.” I responded, “It does not work that way.” “As long as you are giving because you expect something in return, you are not giving from your heart but from selfishness.” I was having an MRI done. WhenContinue reading “Selfishness versus…”
Walking back from the post office with a song in my heart and a twinkle in my eye a man stopped me and said, “If we were in my homeland I would take you.” I stood frozen for a moment processing what he said to me. I responded, “That line may be effective for youContinue reading “Arrogance of Man”
A homeless man laid on the ground against a gray concrete building in the City. It was 37 degrees this morning. He was sleeping, suddenly his body jerked hard wakening him violently. He sat up and started yelling, “Get away from me.” “Get away from me.” As the passersby moved to the far end ofContinue reading “Good Friday in Manhattan”
Two hours ago I settled down at my desk to work. Positive attitude, positive energy flowing. The phone rang. I smiled so the caller would feel my joy. Within four minutes I got annoyed. After five minutes I was pissed. 30 seconds later I was angry. By the time seven minutes rolled in I wasContinue reading “Lesson of self”
They hang out on a regular basis. The time together is appreciated and valued; an appreciation for what they have in common and what they do not have in common. It has been expressed more than once that there is a desire for a more serious relationship. They have little in common. Something that isContinue reading “Opposites Attract”
Jayne slid into driver seat of her 2015 white Lincoln MKZ, plugged her iPhone 6s Plus into the USB, selected R.H.R.’s CD from her play list, added her destination to her GPS, put on her seat belt, took the ponytail holder out of her hair; checked the time on her two carat diamond studded Bolova, started the vehicle, openedContinue reading “Homeless living, Oahu Hawaii”
I walked into the meeting, paused for a moment scanning the room to locate an empty seat. A voice said, “Hey you.” I felt his tone; glanced down in front of me; saw the look in his eyes. I felt one of the four brick walls surrounding my heart crash to the ground…the smoke madeContinue reading “Early morning meeting”
Have you every fallen, and the impact not hurt? Nope; me either. Some falls hurt less than others. Sometimes we can break the fall, Sometimes we brace ourselves for the fall. Sometimes we can roll on the impact…it still hurts. Some falls will have you laying in the rocks unable to move for a momentContinue reading “The fall”
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I BELIEVE something wonderful is about to happen! Safari for the Soul Jan Boal
After my dentist looked at my x-rays he began to tell me what his plan of action is to fix the problem. I said, “I appreciate all that you are going to do; however, do not put anything in my mouth that is going to affect my oral skills.”